Sarah Reviews: In an Absent Dream

In an Absent Dream by Seanan McGuire

This fourth entry and prequel tells the story of Lundy, a very serious young girl who would rather study and dream than become a respectable housewife and live up to the expectations of the world around her. As well she should.

When she finds a doorway to a world founded on logic and reason, riddles and lies, she thinks she’s found her paradise. Alas, everything costs at the goblin market, and when her time there is drawing to a close, she makes the kind of bargain that never plays out well.

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Publication Date: January 8th, 2019

Date Started: January 31st, 2019

Date Finished: February 1st, 2019 

Recommended By: N/A

Acquired: Audiobook from Scribd.com

Content Warnings: Grief, references to abused pregnant girls

Rating: 4/5 Stars

The Good: As always, I loved McGuire’s prose and her philosophical musings embedded in her narrative voice. It’s perfectly balanced and moving, and it always evinces a deep emotional reaction in me. That was present in this book, too, though in slightly different measure. I can also say that I really related to Lundy as a young child. Her preoccupation with the rules felt very familiar to me. Similarly, I appreciated that it was her father who received the most attention as the parental figure. I think father-daughter relationships aren’t explored often enough, especially when they’re as complicated as this pair. It was great seeing a High Logic, High Wicked world from the Wayward Children universes, and its Wicked side really showed up by the end despite the fact that it looks Neutral at first glance. 

The Bad: The pacing in this book was a little more breakneck than in other installments on the series because, like Down Among the Sticks and Bones, it covers a longer period of time. However, Lundy jumps back and forth so many times that it gets just a little disorienting. Also, she became frustrating as a character because the Wicked side of the world clearly affected her ability to relate to people, making her extremely selfish. I appreciate flawed characters, but this particular flaw is one I don’t enjoy so much. I also thought that, while the philosophical aspect was still good, there was too much time spent explaining the rules of the Goblin Market along with events that were often repetitive. 

Representation: This book is unusual in the Wayward Children series for not having much diversity. I think there was a reference to a wlw couple, but I can’t remember who was involved. 

Favorite Line: “No one serves their friends by grinding themselves into dust on the altar of compassion.”

Sarah Reviews: Sawkill Girls

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Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand

Beware of the woods and the dark, dank deep.

He’ll follow you home, and he won’t let you sleep.

Who are the Sawkill Girls?

Marion: the new girl. Awkward and plain, steady and dependable. Weighed down by tragedy and hungry for love she’s sure she’ll never find.

Zoey: the pariah. Luckless and lonely, hurting but hiding it. Aching with grief and dreaming of vanished girls. Maybe she’s broken—or maybe everyone else is.

Val: the queen bee. Gorgeous and privileged, ruthless and regal. Words like silk and eyes like knives, a heart made of secrets and a mouth full of lies.

Their stories come together on the island of Sawkill Rock, where gleaming horses graze in rolling pastures and cold waves crash against black cliffs. Where kids whisper the legend of an insidious monster at parties and around campfires.

Where girls have been disappearing for decades, stolen away by a ravenous evil no one has dared to fight… until now.

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Publication Date: October 22nd, 2018

Date Started: January 21st, 2019

Date Finished: January 27th, 2019

Recommended By: Sierra 

Acquired: Audiobook from Scribd.com

Content Warnings: Body horror, violence, gore, grief, misogyny, parental abuse, acephobia

Rating: 5/5 Stars

The Good: There is a lot to like about this book, holy cow. The first that comes to mind is the prose, which was elevated by the fact that I listened to the audiobook and the narrator was amazing. Legrand makes incredible use of metaphor and simile, wringing out descriptions the likes of which I haven’t seen used before. It’s so visceral and vivid, just like the events in the book. The pacing in this book is perfect, and the tension is high the entire time, with just the right amount of relief now and then to have you ready for more. The characters, too, are complex, messy, and compelling, and the author resisted the urge to sacrifice a single character’s growth for the sake of her relationship with another. Further, the themes of feminism and monstrosity were pitch perfect, and I’m definitely planning on including this in a syllabus in the near future. 

The Bad: If you don’t like body horror, stay away from this one. It gets intense, and I’ll admit I gagged a couple of times. For me, it was worth it for the sum total, but it can be really uncomfortable. 

Representation: Angry queer girls taking down the heteropatriarchy! WOOO!!! Given that the cast of this book was pretty small, I think the diversity was excellent. Zoey is black and also asexual (and tbh, this is probably the BEST ace rep I’ve read in a YA book recently, even over Tash Hearts Tolstoy. It deals with the misunderstandings and self-consciousness and acephobia, and it’s all talked about thoroughly and in a way I found extremely satisfying. Marion is bi- or pansexual, and though it is sourced in a plot element, she experiences what are essentially debilitating migraines throughout the book. Val is also queer, most probably lesbian, and a victim of abuse. All of their experiences and identities interact and clash in remarkable ways, and I honestly loved it.

Favorite Line: “Screw that book,” said Val. “It was written by men.” She held out her free hand to Marion. “We’re rewriting it.”

Sarah Reviews: Red Sister

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Red Sister by Mark Lawrence

I was born for killing – the gods made me to ruin.

At the Convent of Sweet Mercy young girls are raised to be killers. In a few the old bloods show, gifting talents rarely seen since the tribes beached their ships on Abeth. Sweet Mercy hones its novices’ skills to deadly effect: it takes ten years to educate a Red Sister in the ways of blade and fist.

But even the mistresses of sword and shadow don’t truly understand what they have purchased when Nona Grey is brought to their halls as a bloodstained child of eight, falsely accused of murder: guilty of worse.

Stolen from the shadow of the noose, Nona is sought by powerful enemies, and for good reason. Despite the security and isolation of the convent her secret and violent past will find her out. Beneath a dying sun that shines upon a crumbling empire, Nona Grey must come to terms with her demons and learn to become a deadly assassin if she is to survive…

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Publication Date: April 4th, 2017

Date Started: January 5th, 2019

Date Finished: January 21st, 2010

Recommended By: @thoughtsontomes

Acquired: Audiobook from Audible.com

Content Warnings: Racism, violence, child and animal abuse, Stockholm Syndrome

Rating: 4/5 Stars

The Good: The world in which this book takes place was really inventive, and it was interesting learning bits and pieces about it throughout the entire book, rather than in massive infodumps. I also really have to commend the characterization in Red Sister. For one thing, the cast is almost entirely women, and unlike other fantasy books by men, I thought it was very well-done and realistic–there are no moments in which I thought the female characters were oversexualized, cliche, or in other ways cringeworthy. In fact, a major part of the book features the main character’s conflict against a man who sadistically enjoys hurting girls. There is only one scene in which outright misogyny is expressed, and it was by a character we’re meant to dislike. Not only did Lawrence write women well, he also wrote children well. Given that the protagonist was only 9-11 years old in the book, she never read as though she were obscenely mature for that age. Battle-hardened and traumatized, yes, but her logic and behavior all made sense for that age, as did the logic and behavior of her peers. Though I admit it feels as though it’s two separate books packed into one, the pacing was tight and I was content enough to experience the world with Nona that I didn’t mind how long the book was. 

The Bad: Given that the book is about a convent of assassin nuns, there’s very little in the way of assassination that happens. It still wasn’t entirely clear to me what the nuns are training for, other than perhaps supporting the Chosen One. It’s badass, what they do, but the reasoning behind it remains vague as of the end of this book. Perhaps it’s explained in future books a little more clearly. I’ll also say here that this book is not drive by plot. It’s very episodic, which I was only really okay with because the characters and world carried the story on their own. If you’re coming in looking for an overarching plot, though, this isn’t the book where you’ll find that. 

Representation: This book does all right as far as representation goes, but only in certain areas. None of the main characters in this book are people of color, at least until Zole and Yisht appear. As members of the Ice Tribes, Zole and Yisht are very clearly coded as Inuit or otherwise Arctic indigenous people, and the way they’re discussed in the text makes me uncomfortable at times, because they’re frequently Othered and mistrusted. There are people of color in supporting roles, but they don’t appear often. Disability, however, is represented in a variety of ways, with a very important character having a deformed leg; another missing a hand; one being deaf (or nearly so); and so on. How well these varied disabilities are presented is not my place to say, but overall it was good to see them on the page. Finally, there’s some queerness that shows up, with Sisters Apple and Kettle being in a relationship and Nona admitting to having a crush on a fellow novice. Given Nona’s age, though, this doesn’t manifest on the page, though it might in future books. 

Favorite Line: “A book is as dangerous as any journey you might take. The person who closes the back cover may not be the same one that opened the front one. Treat them with respect.”

Sarah Reviews: American Panda

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American Panda by Gloria Chao

At seventeen, Mei should be in high school, but skipping fourth grade was part of her parents’ master plan. Now a freshman at MIT, she is on track to fulfill the rest of this predetermined future: become a doctor, marry a preapproved Taiwanese Ivy Leaguer, produce a litter of babies.

With everything her parents have sacrificed to make her cushy life a reality, Mei can’t bring herself to tell them the truth–that she (1) hates germs, (2) falls asleep in biology lectures, and (3) has a crush on her classmate Darren Takahashi, who is decidedly not Taiwanese.

But when Mei reconnects with her brother, Xing, who is estranged from the family for dating the wrong woman, Mei starts to wonder if all the secrets are truly worth it. Can she find a way to be herself, whoever that is, before her web of lies unravels?

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Publication Date: February 6th, 2018

Date Started: January 3rd, 2019

Date Finished: January 4th, 2019 (DNF @ 37%)

Recommended By: N/A

Acquired: Audiobook from Audible.com

Content Warnings: Emotional abuse, genital/sexual disease, anxiety, phobias, intense misogyny, humiliation of an infertile woman

Rating: 3/5 Stars

The Good: Mei’s voice as a narrator is incredibly clear, and her internal conflicts are in no way ambiguous. The portrayal of her life as the daughter of immigrants, specifically Taiwanese immigrants (I don’t know a lot about Taiwan) is really a benefit to the story. I also like the various tidbits about MIT campus culture and Mei’s experience there as a young freshman. I was a young college student too, and the self-consciousness about that is real. I’m glad the author captured it. 

The Bad: I’m putting a disclaimer here that my problem with this book wasn’t with the culture exactly, and it really has a lot more to do with my personal background. The way Mei’s mother talked about her was honestly painful to listen to, and I was physically uncomfortable when hearing it. Some of the lines are straight out of my own mother’s mouth, and I can tell you that they effed me up big time. Even Mei’s attempts to rationalize her mother’s behavior was exactly the same sort of mental gymnastics I put myself through and have only just started learning to stop. I was getting flashbacks listening to this, and I decided that I didn’t want to put myself through listening to the whole thing. I do understand the cultural component, and I’m not trying here to criticize the culture as a whole because it is far from my place. All I’m saying is that it had a personally negative effect on me. In addition to this, I thought from the cover that there would be some light-heartedness in here amidst the conflict from time to time, but there honestly isn’t. Mei is constantly miserable. While there’s a place for this kind of story, and I don’t think it’s an inherent problem that this book has this kind of narrator, but it’s not the story I need in my life right now. Others may feel differently, and I hope they enjoy the book in a way I just can’t right now. 

Representation: This story provides an important look into the life of a Taiwanese immigrant family, and it’s a story that needs to be out there. With regard to other aspects, there’s a lot of internalized misogyny expressed by Mei’s mother and, to a certain extent, Mei herself. Mei’s roommate is slut-shamed, and there aren’t many other characters to balance some of this out. Her crush is Japanese, but he’s in about two scenes in the portion of the book I read, so he didn’t make much impact. Mei also meets a gay woman on a trip she takes, but again, she was only in one scene in the section of the book I got through. Considering the focus on one particular community, I understand why this is the way it is, but it must be noted.

Favorite Line: N/A

January Reading Wrap-Up

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Given that I have a reading goal of 150 books this year, I think I’ve gotten off to a good start this January! I read 12 books, which is right on track according to Goodreads! For the books I’ve read but haven’t reviewed, the date on the graphic is for the month read. For the books I’m reviewing, the date is when you can plan to see the review. Don’t forget to check out advance reviews for these on my Patreon or hang out here in February to see the reviews on the blog!  

#1 – The Lion in Winter by James Goldman

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Date Started: January 1st, 2019

Date Finished: January 1st, 2019

Format: Print

Reason: Teaching in Spring 2019

Genre: Drama

#2 – American Panda by Gloria Chao

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Date Started: January 3rd, 2019

Date Finished: January 4th, 2019

Format: Audiobook

Reason: For Fun

Genre: YA Contemporary

Review: Available Now (Patrons) or 2/6 (Blog)

#3- The Tape-Recorded Interview: A Manual for Fieldworkers in Folklore and Oral History

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Date Started: January 14th, 2019

Date Finished: January 14th, 2019

Format: PDF

Reason: Read for Fieldwork in Folklore Seminar

Genre: Nonfiction

#4 – Boris Godunov and Other Dramatic Works by Alexander Pushkin

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Date Started: January 8th, 2019

Date Finished: January 17th, 2019

Format: Print

Reason: Teaching in Spring 2019

Genre: Drama

#5 – The Kreutzer Sonata and Other Short Stories by Leo Tolstoy

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Date Started: January 15th, 2019

Date Finished: January 17th, 2019

Format: EBook

Reason: Read for Pregnancy and Procreation in Russian Literature and Film Seminar

Genre: Short Story

#6 – Red Sister by Mark Lawrence

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Date Started: January 5th, 2019

Date Finished: January 21st, 2019

Format: Audiobook

Reason: For Fun

Genre: Adult Fantasy

Review: Available 2/3 (Patrons) or 2/10 (Blog)

#7 – Agostino by Alberto Moravia

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Date Started: January 1st, 2019

Date Finished: January 22nd, 2019

Format: Print

Reason: Teaching Spring 2019

Genre: Adult Contemporary

#8 – The Aran Islands by J.M. Synge

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Date Started: January 18th, 2019

Date Finished: January 23rd, 2019

Format: eBook

Reason: Read for Readings in Ethnography Seminar

Genre: Nonfiction

#9 – Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand

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Date Started: January 21st, 2019

Date Finished: January 27th, 2019

Format: Audiobook

Reason: For Fun

Genre: YA Fantasy

Review: Available 2/13 (Patrons) or 2/20 (Blog)

#10 – East by Edith Pattou

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Date Started: January 5th, 2019

Date Finished: January 30th, 2019

Format: Print

Reason: For Qualifying Exams/For Fun/First Friday Fairy Tales

Genre: YA Fantasy

Review: Available 2/1

#11 – To Make Monsters Out of Girls by amanda lovelace

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Date Started: January 28th, 2019

Date Finished: January 28th, 2019

Format: eBook

Reason: For Fun

Genre: Poetry

#12 – In an Absent Dream by Seanan McGuire

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Date Started: January 31st, 2019

Date Finished: January 31st, 2019

Format: Audiobook

Reason: For Fun

Genre: YA Fantasy

Review: Available 2/17 (Patrons) or 2/24 (Blog)


I’ve got a lot of great reads coming up next month, too, so stay tuned for my reading wrap-up at the end of February!